Month: December 2006

Christmas 2006

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I got through the Christmas season and holiday. Although not able to do as much as I would have liked, I enjoyed every
bit of the stress and hub-bub that goes with it.

One holiday party, lots of food and unwrapping gifts all overwhelmed me at times. I had headaches throughout the
weekend and was very tired by the end of each day, but for the most part, I did good.

Dave and I spent our first Christmas eve together alone since I moved to Maine six years ago and it was very special, then we were able to open our gifts first thing Christmas morning with our kitties. Very nice.

I’m just extremely lucky to be here this Christmas and reminded myself of that on a daily basis. God has blessed me and I should honor that be being good to myself and to others around me.

Here’s to a healthy and Happy New Year!

Just Happy to Be Here

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I survived another birthday on Friday. My 40ish-something birthday. I also survived my first “party” since my ruptured annie. Dave drove me in for the JSS holiday party, but not without letting me open a few gifts and cards at home. My family and friends back in NY & Canada had all sent me packages which I opened gladly. Frankly, I’m just happy to BE here for this birthday. And I was thrilled to be able to go to the party. They always do such fun activities during the Christmas season, and I missed being a part of that this year.

Apparently folks were warned to not “overwhelm” me at the luncheon which was good. Just going up the stairs, getting my food and sitting in a new, holiday setting, was different
and the festivities during the lunch were very enjoyable and funny that my head hurt from laughing at the end and I was quite tired, but overall, it went very well. I received a couple of very nice gifts from my coworkers as well as my boss and unwrapping and all the excitement got to me.

I was tired and had a headache when I got home, but a nap and a Vicadin later, I felt much better and Dave even went
in and picked up an order at The Olive Garden for my birthday dinner. Overall, it was a busy day, but a good day. I did a lot of things and wasn’t in too much pain at the end of the day. All the good meals helped!

Saturday, however, I was pretty wiped out and didn’t do much. No matter where I sat, I fell asleep. I didn’t feel bad, just VERY tired.

Stretch

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I have started doing my low-impact yoga in the mornings and doing neck stretches. I need both badly. Yes, I’ve been
resting, but it’s making me wider and stiffer. My joints and muscles are extremely tight. That was VERY evident the first time I did yoga. They’re very simple, very low-impact stretches and before the ruptured aneurysm, they were a breeze, but not now. That’s frustrating, but I know my body has been through an ordeal with being in the hospital for 20 days, then home bound for two months without very little exercise. I got out and walked more in the hospital than I do at home. No fun walking down the road by yourself, especially during hunting season when we’re in the woods.

I suppose I should start walking inside more. Get my sneakers on and MOVE. I’d love to start working on the water rower, but I think I need to get my balance and energy in line before I attempt that. Obviously, if wrapping gifts tires me out, then using my rowing machine could kill me! LOL I joke, but I know it would be too much…and that’s frustrating.

I can’t say I’m depressed because I can’t do things I used to do before the rupture, but it certainly is frustrating. I feel fine doing certain things, but more taxing activities are extremely draining. I’m still recovering that’s for sure, not matter how I look on the outside, I’m still struggling on the inside.

Ho, Ho, Frustrating

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I never would have thought that wrapping Christmas gifts would be so damn tiring. Two times I’ve sat on the floor and wrapped and got dizzy and exhausted. Who’da thunk unrolling wrapping paper, peeling a piece of scotch tape and folding wrapping paper around a box would  poop me out. Very frustrating.

A lot of things are frustrating me right now. I’m feeling frustrated because I just can’t DO everything the way I
used to. I’ve had to rethink or readjust ways I do laundry, ways I take a shower, dry my hair put on clothes, bend over to pick things up…..I’m justmnot normal…or my “new” normal will be completely different from now on. I can’t just pick up and do certain things like I used to and that’s very frustrating and I get snippy and there it is. I’d do it…if I felt I could do it safely and not get weak and dizzy. I can’t help it…it’s just the way I am now! i have to deal with….others will have to too. Merry freaking Christmas.