11-Month Update

I realized I haven’t given much of an update on how my brain aneurysm is doing for many months. My 2nd aneurysm was clipped 11 months ago.

Physically, the hair has all grown back and didn’t ALL come back in gray, but certainly one streak snuck it’s way through. A few blonde highlights helped cover that up temporarily.

The incision where the skin was pulled back, then replaced and sown on with 53 stitches is almost non-existent. I say “almost” because there are still some dry, itchy spots directly along the incision cut that’ll flare up occasionally.

I do still have quite a good chunk of my scalp that doesn’t have much feeling and some nights it’s uncomfortable to lay on the left side of my face and head still. I haven’t been able to determine what triggers that uncomfortable feeling yet. But I certainly feel it and know that the brain bling, the bone plate and screws are there and making their presence known.

A good indentation has now become more pronounced where the piece of skull was removed the replaced, however. I can cover it up with my bangs for the most part, but I know it’s there and I’m a tad self-conscious about it. I don’t know why I feel that way….I should be proud of my battle scars and brain bling.

I believe I’m supposed to have a follow-up angiogram in January and I’m looking forward to finally seeing the images of the clip and it’s location. And hopefully everything will look good with the clip as well as the other, older, clip-filled aneurysm and they don’t locate any others.

I’m so ready to kick the year 2014 in the arse and kiss it goodbye.

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Still looks better than it did 11 months ago below

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Post-surgery. Yikes!

The day after craniotomy & brain aneurysm clipping

The 9-Month Update

It has been awhile since I gave an update on my noggin. I’ve been very busy, very tired, and very tired. Now, none of that is highly unusual for this time of year. It is catalog time which usually means it’s very busy and I’m very tired…It just usually isn’t on top of brain surgery 9 months prior.

I’ve been a very bad patient too. I haven’t eaten well. I don’t exercise and I’m not giving myself enough breaks from the computer during the day. It’s no wonder I’m tired, cranky and head-achey. It’s the nature of the beast this time of year, but there are some new aches and pains around my head and skull that annoy.

My scalp is still numb over a large chunk of my skull. I’ve started to get used to it I guess. It’s still odd, but isn’t anything painful, so that’s good. I do get odd pains in and around the incision area and where the skin would have been pealed back from the skull. Not sure what triggers it or how to make it feel better. Usually resting does it…and yes, I haven’t done enough of that either. Why do I do it? Life is too short….I guess I’m just one of those human beings who feels responsible for my job. I have a major deadline to meet and I haven’t missed it once in the last 13 years. Well, I can’t remember if they got the files to the printer on time the year my other brain aneurysm ruptured, but I wasn’t exactly “aware” at that time.

Chocolate is my friend this time of year. It’s what “sustains” us! LOL The extreme comfort food…any time of the day.

Adding to the stress of uneasiness about my frame of mind and stamina this time of year is that my mother was in the hospital back in NY and is now in a rehab center. I haven’t seen her at all. I don’t dare take any time off this time of year. I hope to get to NY as soon as I can after the catalog has been printed and I can settle back into a normal routine at work. I feel horrible not being there for her and my niece, who is handling everything for mom by herself. Thankfully, Mom appears to be doing okay and is in good spirits which helps. She’s a tough old bird at 88 and seems to be enjoying some of the new people she has met.

Dave, as usual, has had to deal with my many moods, mood swings, and horrible meals this time of year. Usually the months of September (because of the Maine Brain Aneurysm Walk/Run) and October (catalog) are filled with junk food and fatigue. Then Dave just broke two ribs last weekend, so he’s not doing well himself! We’re a great pair. I’m calling him “short ribs”. 🙂 Thank God I have such a wonderful husband who allows me to be ticked off, vent, and generally will leave me alone when I need to be during this time. He never complains. How DID I get so lucky?

Last year at this time I was keeping the fact I was going to have a craniotomy the next January a secret from my co-workers until the catalog was completed. All that time I was able to “plan” my schedule around my surgery and make sure I had things in order and had people lined up to assist while I was out. I suppose that’s one of the GOOD things about knowing you’ll have surgery on a brain aneurysm instead of a sudden, emergency situation: you can plan! And I’m also urging people to be scanned and go to the Dr. if they’re experiencing any of the symptoms of a brain aneurysm.

My niece was scanned this summer and by the grace of God, everything looked fine. Even if they had found something, I know from personal experience, it’s not a death sentence. There ARE treatments out there and there ARE things that can be done to save a life. I’m LIVING proof of that! Just taking it one day at a time and “playing it by ear” as my family says.

I Remember

As my six month anniversary of my brain aneurysm clipping arrives, I ran across the notes I took at my first followup appointment with the surgeon. I scribbled that the “bone has to heal”. I keep forgetting the bone will heal around the screws and plates holding the bone flap secure. The last several weeks, I have “felt” my brain/head/nerves when I lay at a flatter level in bed. It’s not painful, it’s just not a pleasant sensation. So I have added another pillow and that helps.

On Neurosurgery.com from Australia, there was this question: Does the bone heal back into the skull?  In most cases yes, but in some people it can re-absorb to a degree then you will have a depression in your skull.

I must be one of the “some people” statistic. I notice the depression and can feel it and Dave has noticed it, but unless I point it out to people I don’t think they know it’s there. So I should stop pointing it out, right? LOL Hey, I had a hole cut into my head and 53 stitches. It MAY just leave a scar, right?

I know things are continuing to heal. The scalp is still numb, but it appears to be getting some feeling back now. My short strands of hair that were shaved at the incision are now growing a tick longer and annoying the hell out of me! We’ll see if I can hold out one more month then get it all cut short for the rest of the summer.

I THINK I’m starting to get some energy back. Granted, I haven’t really DONE much of anything. I’m getting chubby, but I’m rested. That’s good isn’t it? I’m up for a full physical next week and have to get some lab work done this week. We’ll see how my numbers look.

Overall I’m doing well. I’m listening to my body and when I need to sleep, I sleep. At least I try to. The main reason I had this procedure done was so I can continue living and that’s what I’m trying to do…one month at a time. I must remember I am still recovering and must remember my head/skull/brain is still healing. My brain bling is firmly in place.

Gravity

Since my craniotomy brain aneurysm clipping surgery in January, I have slept at an angle with a large, decorative pillow behind my regular pillow. I decided to try sleeping with a regular one instead and realized I guess I can’t sleep that low. I was kind of surprised.

I had trouble getting to sleep the other night. My skull was “acting up”. I have yet to find the correct word to describe how it feels. It’s not hurting per say, but it feels strange and kind of aching and disarming. Almost like someone is squeezing my brain, or at least the tissues around my brain. I’m sure it’s just all of those layers of tissue continuing to heal after being cut apart and pealed way from my skull, but laying down flatter certainly made it more prevalent.

Gravity was not my friend. I tried to get comfortable. I always start to sleep on my right side anyway, but even that wasn’t very comfortable. I rolled over and that didn’t help, even when I tried to position the pillows so they weren’t touching my head in that area. Which is NOT easy, trust me! 🙂

So, I grabbed the large pillow again and positioned that behind my head and that helped…or at least psychologically it helped me. I’m not sure if this is just part of that healing and recovery process or if laying lower really created that discomfort. I had the same discomfort driving home from work today. I know I can’t blame that on gravity as I don’t normally lay down while driving! I think they frown upon that.

Dave has urged me to take advantage of our medical personnel presence at the brain aneurysm support group this Friday to ask her if I should be concerned or if that’s just a normal part of the healing and recovery. I just wish I could describe the feeling better.