It has been awhile since I gave an update on my noggin. I’ve been very busy, very tired, and very tired. Now, none of that is highly unusual for this time of year. It is catalog time which usually means it’s very busy and I’m very tired…It just usually isn’t on top of brain surgery 9 months prior.
I’ve been a very bad patient too. I haven’t eaten well. I don’t exercise and I’m not giving myself enough breaks from the computer during the day. It’s no wonder I’m tired, cranky and head-achey. It’s the nature of the beast this time of year, but there are some new aches and pains around my head and skull that annoy.
My scalp is still numb over a large chunk of my skull. I’ve started to get used to it I guess. It’s still odd, but isn’t anything painful, so that’s good. I do get odd pains in and around the incision area and where the skin would have been pealed back from the skull. Not sure what triggers it or how to make it feel better. Usually resting does it…and yes, I haven’t done enough of that either. Why do I do it? Life is too short….I guess I’m just one of those human beings who feels responsible for my job. I have a major deadline to meet and I haven’t missed it once in the last 13 years. Well, I can’t remember if they got the files to the printer on time the year my other brain aneurysm ruptured, but I wasn’t exactly “aware” at that time.
Chocolate is my friend this time of year. It’s what “sustains” us! LOL The extreme comfort food…any time of the day.
Adding to the stress of uneasiness about my frame of mind and stamina this time of year is that my mother was in the hospital back in NY and is now in a rehab center. I haven’t seen her at all. I don’t dare take any time off this time of year. I hope to get to NY as soon as I can after the catalog has been printed and I can settle back into a normal routine at work. I feel horrible not being there for her and my niece, who is handling everything for mom by herself. Thankfully, Mom appears to be doing okay and is in good spirits which helps. She’s a tough old bird at 88 and seems to be enjoying some of the new people she has met.
Dave, as usual, has had to deal with my many moods, mood swings, and horrible meals this time of year. Usually the months of September (because of the Maine Brain Aneurysm Walk/Run) and October (catalog) are filled with junk food and fatigue. Then Dave just broke two ribs last weekend, so he’s not doing well himself! We’re a great pair. I’m calling him “short ribs”. 🙂 Thank God I have such a wonderful husband who allows me to be ticked off, vent, and generally will leave me alone when I need to be during this time. He never complains. How DID I get so lucky?
Last year at this time I was keeping the fact I was going to have a craniotomy the next January a secret from my co-workers until the catalog was completed. All that time I was able to “plan” my schedule around my surgery and make sure I had things in order and had people lined up to assist while I was out. I suppose that’s one of the GOOD things about knowing you’ll have surgery on a brain aneurysm instead of a sudden, emergency situation: you can plan! And I’m also urging people to be scanned and go to the Dr. if they’re experiencing any of the symptoms of a brain aneurysm.
My niece was scanned this summer and by the grace of God, everything looked fine. Even if they had found something, I know from personal experience, it’s not a death sentence. There ARE treatments out there and there ARE things that can be done to save a life. I’m LIVING proof of that! Just taking it one day at a time and “playing it by ear” as my family says.
4 thoughts on “The 9-Month Update”
Thanks for the update. Was wondering how you were doing. Glad to hear you’re hanging in there during your busy season. Here’s to hoping the work on the catalogue is going smoothly, your mom continues to do better and that the chocolate keeps on flowing! Big Hugs : ). Melanie
Numbness on your skull—We could make a funny about numskulls, but, no; I’d like to offer something my wife encouraged me to do after surgeries. It’s a bit harder in a place where there is hair to mess up, but rubbing in circular paterns across the numb spots will help promote healing through increased circulation. And here is something else—for your mind to ponder and realize:
After almost 13 months of post surgical existence (from my heart bypass) I am finally beginning to feel healed in most parts that were disrupted except for my chest which was literally split open. That still aches, and has some strange (seemingly disconnected pains) and my doc(s) tell me it’s OK. In my case, they split cartilage, and there is very little blood flow through it, and so it must knit more slowly because nutrients come to it in meager amounts.
I think you are great to write about all of this, Heidi.
Thank you Steve. I know you’ve been through a horrible time too, but YOU’RE HERE! 🙂 Take care of yourself.
I wasn’t aware that we shared the dubious honor of a 9 month anniversary from a craniotomy, but there it is. Mine was a rupture. Thank you for sharing; although I wish you were sharing you felt better! I’m the same way though; pushing the limits and too tired and too much of a headache too often. My job is on the computer also, and I could definitely take more breaks. I hope you get to see your Mom soon…take care and keep in touch.