Sneeze!

Right now, one of the most painful things for me is sneezing. WOW! Even though I know it’s NOT happening, each time I do sneeze, it feels like I blasted out a new aneurysm or popped all the coils in the fixed one.

It feels like my brain is being thrust against the inside of my skull. I DO hope that fades away quickly, but I fear it will last while yet.

In the meantime, when I feel a sneeze starting, I’m trying my god awful best to stop it. My biggest fear now is that
I get a cold. It ‘tis the season!

Update

I’m on day 10 at home. I’m having a headache pretty much every morning. Some days much worse than others. I’m finding that if I do too much in the morning, which is when I feel the best after breakfast and a pain pill, I feel much worse around 1:00 and the rest of the afternoon. So, today I experimented and did nothing this morning. Literally nothing. I have felt much better this afternoon and just took a shower. I guess I might be overdoing it. I didn’t think so, but perhaps my head is telling me otherwise. Some days it’s an all-day headache that even the Vicadin won’t touch. I’ve been given permission from the Dr. to take Sudafed when I feel it’s a sinus issue, so that’s good.

I go for my follow-up MRI on Tuesday down in Scarborough (south of Portland), but do not get the results until my visit with Dr. Kwan the following Tuesday. A nurse is coming in twice a week and the occupational therapist is in one day a week to work with me. They’re both really nice.

I’m trying to bend down a bit more each day and continue walking in the house. I can’t move quickly as that throws my
balance off and bending completely over is a no-no just yet. I’m feeling a bit more stable when walking and standing, so I think the cane might be history soon. It’s more of a safety thing right now. If I SHOULD get dizzy, or I walk outside to get the mail on an uneven surface, I’d rather have it there, than not. I haven’t attempted the stairs yet. Laundry is piling up, so I fear I’ll need to soon but I won’t be able to lift the wet clothing.

I am sleeping very well though. I’ve never been much of a napper, so just laying down in the middle of the day isn’t
easy for me. Once I do, I always fall asleep, but it’s making myself do it that’s difficult.

Yesterday I unloaded and loaded the dishwasher (sitting on a chair) as well as sorted out and threw out magazines  and catalogs (threw them all on the floor and sat down) that
have accumulated throughout the house since I left on Oct. 5th. It took a lot out of me and I paid for it later in the day. Poor Dave came home to grumpy, whiny Heidi. She’s just so unattractive. I should have stopped after the dishwasher and called that my therapy for the day. But I felt good, so I pushed it. Bad Heidi, bad. I just fear I’ll become a couch potato, so I feel I HAVE to do something, but I can’t push it. A little at a time still. I just have to remind myself I’m recovering from brain surgery!

Recipe for Recovery

One of the kind care givers who stopped in to check on me gave me a copy of a poem a patient had written. I thought it was very appropriate.

Recipe For Recovery

    • 1 Cup of Hope
    • A Dash of Courage
    • 2 1/2 Cups of Trust
    • Several Months of Therapy
    • 4 Tablespoons of Faith
    • Work by the Load
    • A Bag of Knowledge
    • A Pinch of Reassurance
    • A Ton of Support
    • One Box of Memories
    • 2 Pints of Higher Power
    • A Handful of Friends
    • 1 Platter of Patience
    • Lots of time
    • A Plate of Mistakes
    • 1 Stack of Affirmations
    • Buckets of Tears
    • One Box of Crayons
    • A Bunch of Soft huggy things
    • 1 1/2 Gallons on Rewards
    • A good effort
    • 2 Big Bags of Understanding
  • Most important ingredient: LOVE!