Category: Milestones

First Full Week of Work

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I did it….well, ALMOST! I worked a full week, but worked from home on Thursday due to a snow storm. The other four days, it was 8:00 to 4:30 for the first time since last October.

My eyes get very tired easily still and physically I get tired, but not too bad. I have finally forced myself to get up and get away from my computer, even if it’s for 10 minutes. That seems to help. I’ve been eating better the last several weeks. No eating as much sugar and flour products and I think that’s helping as well. I don’t FEEL as tired that’s for sure.

It has been a long six months, but I’ve come a long, long way. I’m proud of myself. I feel like I should celebrate in some fashion…take myself out to dinner or buy myself a bouquet of flowers and have them sent to work or something. Maybe I’ll just make myself some scones to celebrate on Easter weekend. Yeah, that’ll probably be it.

I still get caught up in the daily frustrations of the company and my coworkers. That will never change. I’m TRYING to just realize there are important things to get upset about and there are unimportant things that shouldn’t take up that much of my energy. It’s a hard lesson to learn. Old habits die hard, but things have been worse. My life could have been much worse as a result of the annie, but I’m still here and I should remember that I’m actually very lucky to be experiencing the day-to-day “crap” in the work world. I know I missed the daily human contact with others while I was homebound.

It’s very difficult for me in the mornings when I say good morning to say someone and they say “What’s so good about it”, or anything else that’s negative to not get into their face and say “You have a job! You’re walking, talking, thinking and breathing! You’re ALIVE…now shut up!”. We take so much for granted on a daily basis. I’m guilty and I’m sure are too. Take advantage of, and live your life to the fullest. If you have wanted to take the quick weekend getaway? Do it! If you want to spend a day at a spa? Do it! Treat yourself. You only have one life.

Head

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This week I realized for the first time that the spot where my aneurysm is/was did not hurt when I bend over. It may have been that way for a week or two, but this week was the first time I realized it wasn’t bothering me. How nice!!

I’m oober sensitive in the head area right now with my sinus infection and any head discomfort I’m currently experiencing is due to the sinus crap, not the annie, which is a switch.

I started a diet and exercising this week, so I’m bending over more, doing stretches and exerting myself more and NOT feeling bothered by my annie. Let’s hope that trend continues.

Groceries

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I never, EVER thought I would be excited about grocery shopping. Today was the exception.

I couldn’t hide from the big stores any longer, so I decided I’d go with Dave to get groceries today at Shaw’s Supermarket. It’s the first time setting foot into the big grocery store since before the ruptured annie. I was nervous, but once I got into the store, I remember where everything was just fine. I’d been going there for years, so I wasn’t doubting I’d remember where things were…unless they moved them on me which, thankfully, they did not.

Being armed with a good, detailed, very organized list didn’t hurt either. I was prepared. If I had had to wander around aimlessly looking for “something” for lunch and no knowing exactly what I was looking for and going up and down aisles….could have been bad.

I did very well and that pleased me. Only once did I start to feel confused and thought I was going to have to ask Dave to help me, but it passed. I got everything on my list and checked out. I was quite tickled I did so well. During the ride home (Dave drove), I got amheadache and needed to close my eyes. I felt like I had just crammed for a big test…my brain was tired for lack of a better description. The shopping trip was a lot of work for my brain and I was feeling it. Not horrible pain, but it was there.

Overall…this was a BIG step. I’m still not sure I could stop at the store for the BIG grocery trip on my way home from work and then drive home, but I could certainly go with Dave on the weekend and help. Dave did say I shouldn’t go by myself for awhile, so we’ll work into it slowly….just as I’ve done everything else. It did feel good to grocery shop….and that’s probably the last time I’ll EVER say that!

Night

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Since I was tired after working and didn’t feel like cooking Friday night and Dave had thrown his back out working on the counter top, I decided we’d order a pizza. I waited until around 5:00 to order and it would be 30 minutes. I didn’t realize until I walked out the door to go pick it up, that it was almost dark out. I hadn’t driven at dark since Oct. 4th of ’06!

I noticed three things on my drive homemafter picking up the pizza:

1) Someone on route 135 still havemtheir Christmas three up! LOL I drive that road everyday to work and back, but it’s always daylight. At night, I noticed the free and their Xmas lights on it in their living room through the window.

2) Our neighbors have lights! We haven’t had neighbors in that house since I moved here and coming around the bend, I couldn’t figure out what the lights through the trees were. The neighbors! First time I have seen them.

>3) I still don’t like driving at night.mLOL That hasn’t changed at all!

BUT, the big thing was that it wasn’t really any different than before, so that’s good. I still don’t like it when cars come at me with their lights and I still go slower than I would during the daylight. I just concentrated a bit more last night.