Category: Fatigue

Rough Drive

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I went into work later on Thursday to join a mandatory meeting in the afternoon, then I left at 3:00. As I was leaving the parking lot, I remember thinking it was the best I have felt leaving work in a long time and I was going to suggest to Dave that we go into town for dinner and then groceries.

BUT, on the drive home, I started having problems with my right eye. It was very odd. It wasn’t double vision, it was like a ripple of water was partially blocking my vision on my right eye. It was very discerning. Not painful and it really wasn’t to the point where my vision was blocked, it was just annoying and disturbing.

At the last intersection I come upon, I almost called Dave to ask him to come and pick me up, but then it cleared up so I continued. Then, just as quickly as it cleared up, it came back and I drove slower to get home.

I immediately sat down on the couch and closed my eyes upon entering the house. Not even taking the time to kiss Dave our usual “hello” when I arrive home from work. My head was slightly hurting and my fingers has been slightly numb in my right hand.

I closed my eyes for 15 or 20 minutes and my vision cleared up. My head felt better, but I still didn’t feel right. Then later, I had a horrible upset stomach, so not sure what’s up with all of that or if any of them are even related.

Groceries

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I never, EVER thought I would be excited about grocery shopping. Today was the exception.

I couldn’t hide from the big stores any longer, so I decided I’d go with Dave to get groceries today at Shaw’s Supermarket. It’s the first time setting foot into the big grocery store since before the ruptured annie. I was nervous, but once I got into the store, I remember where everything was just fine. I’d been going there for years, so I wasn’t doubting I’d remember where things were…unless they moved them on me which, thankfully, they did not.

Being armed with a good, detailed, very organized list didn’t hurt either. I was prepared. If I had had to wander around aimlessly looking for “something” for lunch and no knowing exactly what I was looking for and going up and down aisles….could have been bad.

I did very well and that pleased me. Only once did I start to feel confused and thought I was going to have to ask Dave to help me, but it passed. I got everything on my list and checked out. I was quite tickled I did so well. During the ride home (Dave drove), I got amheadache and needed to close my eyes. I felt like I had just crammed for a big test…my brain was tired for lack of a better description. The shopping trip was a lot of work for my brain and I was feeling it. Not horrible pain, but it was there.

Overall…this was a BIG step. I’m still not sure I could stop at the store for the BIG grocery trip on my way home from work and then drive home, but I could certainly go with Dave on the weekend and help. Dave did say I shouldn’t go by myself for awhile, so we’ll work into it slowly….just as I’ve done everything else. It did feel good to grocery shop….and that’s probably the last time I’ll EVER say that!

Night

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Since I was tired after working and didn’t feel like cooking Friday night and Dave had thrown his back out working on the counter top, I decided we’d order a pizza. I waited until around 5:00 to order and it would be 30 minutes. I didn’t realize until I walked out the door to go pick it up, that it was almost dark out. I hadn’t driven at dark since Oct. 4th of ’06!

I noticed three things on my drive homemafter picking up the pizza:

1) Someone on route 135 still havemtheir Christmas three up! LOL I drive that road everyday to work and back, but it’s always daylight. At night, I noticed the free and their Xmas lights on it in their living room through the window.

2) Our neighbors have lights! We haven’t had neighbors in that house since I moved here and coming around the bend, I couldn’t figure out what the lights through the trees were. The neighbors! First time I have seen them.

>3) I still don’t like driving at night.mLOL That hasn’t changed at all!

BUT, the big thing was that it wasn’t really any different than before, so that’s good. I still don’t like it when cars come at me with their lights and I still go slower than I would during the daylight. I just concentrated a bit more last night.

Work in Progress

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Just when I think I’m doing okay and getting into the swing of things with work and can possible increase my hours, I have a day like today where I had two meetings, did a lot of work on my computer and it almost did me in to the point I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to drive home.

One of the meetings dealt with part of the process that involves the catalog and it just got me thinking about “that time of the year” and if I’m going to be able to handle the
stress and strain of it this year. I have one day where I think it won’t be a problem, then I have a day like today where my stamina and concentration just is not what it should be and that really concerns me. What if I’m not able to do it? It’s still a few months off, but it WILL come, there’s no avoiding it. The stress and strain will always be there and now with some added duties at work, I’m very concerned. Just doing my normal job of doing ads and other projects is keeping my mind and stamina busy right now.

I think I’m going to have to get some kind of regimen in place to help me deal with it all. A health, work and stress plan. Other wise I’m not going to be much good. OR…perhaps I’ll see if I can complete the catalog WITHOUT devoting myself so completely to the job. It’s a concern, but I have some time to plan for it.