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First Full Week of Work

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I did it….well, ALMOST! I worked a full week, but worked from home on Thursday due to a snow storm. The other four days, it was 8:00 to 4:30 for the first time since last October.

My eyes get very tired easily still and physically I get tired, but not too bad. I have finally forced myself to get up and get away from my computer, even if it’s for 10 minutes. That seems to help. I’ve been eating better the last several weeks. No eating as much sugar and flour products and I think that’s helping as well. I don’t FEEL as tired that’s for sure.

It has been a long six months, but I’ve come a long, long way. I’m proud of myself. I feel like I should celebrate in some fashion…take myself out to dinner or buy myself a bouquet of flowers and have them sent to work or something. Maybe I’ll just make myself some scones to celebrate on Easter weekend. Yeah, that’ll probably be it.

I still get caught up in the daily frustrations of the company and my coworkers. That will never change. I’m TRYING to just realize there are important things to get upset about and there are unimportant things that shouldn’t take up that much of my energy. It’s a hard lesson to learn. Old habits die hard, but things have been worse. My life could have been much worse as a result of the annie, but I’m still here and I should remember that I’m actually very lucky to be experiencing the day-to-day “crap” in the work world. I know I missed the daily human contact with others while I was homebound.

It’s very difficult for me in the mornings when I say good morning to say someone and they say “What’s so good about it”, or anything else that’s negative to not get into their face and say “You have a job! You’re walking, talking, thinking and breathing! You’re ALIVE…now shut up!”. We take so much for granted on a daily basis. I’m guilty and I’m sure are too. Take advantage of, and live your life to the fullest. If you have wanted to take the quick weekend getaway? Do it! If you want to spend a day at a spa? Do it! Treat yourself. You only have one life.

The “Look”

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Either a transformation takes place between my house and work in my car, or I just don’t look like I used to! People at work constantly tell me I look tired. I’m sure I am, but I’ve never had so many people, almost on a daily basis tell me I look tired. It usually comes after they ask  me how I am. I usually say “Good”, then they’ll say “You look tired though”.

I know my hair is thinning and my makeup isn’t what it used to be….I think I just need some SUN!

Work in Progress

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Just when I think I’m doing okay and getting into the swing of things with work and can possible increase my hours, I have a day like today where I had two meetings, did a lot of work on my computer and it almost did me in to the point I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to drive home.

One of the meetings dealt with part of the process that involves the catalog and it just got me thinking about “that time of the year” and if I’m going to be able to handle the
stress and strain of it this year. I have one day where I think it won’t be a problem, then I have a day like today where my stamina and concentration just is not what it should be and that really concerns me. What if I’m not able to do it? It’s still a few months off, but it WILL come, there’s no avoiding it. The stress and strain will always be there and now with some added duties at work, I’m very concerned. Just doing my normal job of doing ads and other projects is keeping my mind and stamina busy right now.

I think I’m going to have to get some kind of regimen in place to help me deal with it all. A health, work and stress plan. Other wise I’m not going to be much good. OR…perhaps I’ll see if I can complete the catalog WITHOUT devoting myself so completely to the job. It’s a concern, but I have some time to plan for it.

Numb & Number

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On Tuesday I worked from home for 6 1/2 hours. A long day for me whether at home or the office. It doesn’t seem as long at home because I don’t have the 60 mile round trip drive!

Late morning I started to realize I was very cold, then realized it was only my right hand. It was freezing. I went into Dave’s office, placed my right hand on his bare right arm and he said it was freezing to the touch. My left hand however, was fine. I’ve always had circulation problems with my hands and feet, but never just one at a time. Very odd.

Then I thought it was where my arm was hitting the edge of my desk for my mouse. My desk or mouse location have not changed…I have. I took a break from my computer to whip up some lunch and while slicing some veggies and ham for a sandwich, my index finger and thumb on my right hand went numb and stayed that way for awhile.

It doesn’t hurt, doesn’t prevent me from doing anything with them, it’s just very discerning and a bit annoying not knowing exactly what is causing it since I had the ruptured annie. The feeling in my fingers came back just as quickly as it came on and it’s always in my right hand. I REALLY need to find out what’s taking so long with the referral from my PCP for the neurologist. I’d really to have an appointment set up to
discuss things like this with her.