Dance For Awareness

The Dance for Brain Aneurysm Awareness event was held last Saturday at the Legion in Westbrook, Maine. Over 200 people attended and it’s believed over $4,000 was raised. It was the first event of this type that the Maine Brain Aneurysm Awareness group has held, and by all accounts, it was a success!

Dave and I arrived early to help set up. One of the nice things about this indoor event was we didn’t have to deal with gusty winds like we do at the walk/run in September. It was a joy to not have to weight everything down and set up tents to protect us from the elements. As a result, setup went fairly quickly.

What took more time was setting up all of the wonderful items that were collected for the Chinese and Silent auctions. Some truly wonderful gift baskets, artwork, and gift cards made for some interesting bidding wars throughout the evening. I won a beautiful painting of a door with two plantings on either side of the entrance. It spoke to me when I first saw it.

Our DJ, Gloria played and sang music from many eras and genres. She pretty much had something for everyone to dance to. Once the lights were turned down, many people took to the floor and boogied. Since I was suffering from pleurisy, I was showing restraint and only did two slow dances with Dave all night. That was about my speed. LOL

The date for the dance was set based on the birthdays of Kim Tudor (Dave’s niece) and Karolina Kurka. Last weekend just happen to fall in between both their birthdays, so it seemed an appropriate time to honor them both, as well as bring to light more awareness and understanding of brain aneurysms, and hopefully help any other families in the area who may have been touched by aneurysms. A few new people did show up and some members of the medical community came, which was truly wonderful!

As Kim’s mother had a difficult time with this event being held so close to Kim’s birthday, I was reminded of how fresh and painful these types of losses can be. The anniversary of my sister’s death is looming ever closer in May and next month I will be having my
aneurysms checked yet again with an angiogram.

But I am very thankful for this band of volunteers and their families who are making the healing less painful and showing us that we can get through this as a community. The unfortunate camaraderie we share is a comfort and the friends I’ve made through this tragedy have truly touched me.

Keep an eye on the MaineBA.org website for more photos of the event once we’re able to gather them all.

Yesterday

Yesterday was a sad, horrible anniversary. The day Kim passed from a sudden ruptured brain aneurysm in 2008. It was a horrible, horrible, day just a few days after we had spent Christmas with her. One I’d love to forget and wipe from my memory. Unfortunately, just as thousands of other families deal with, it’s a memory I cannot forget.

The police tape, the medical vehicles, the tragic cries of a mother losing her only child…it’s a day no one should have to live through and one that haunts me on this “anniversary”. Yes, it’s a day I’d love to forget.

From the sadness and horror of that day, Kim’s family and friends have had to deal with the difficult task of moving on without her in their lives, just as thousands of other families do each year. We aren’t special in that respect, but Kim sure was. I prefer to remember her smile, her laugh, and her kindness. Not the horrific scenes of that day four years ago.

I know Kim wouldn’t want us to dwell on that day either and to move forward and create something positive out of a horrible event so that her friends and family can heal and provide the kind of help and kindness to others that Kim was so famous for.

Unfortunately, my family has been touched by brain aneurysms. I have two older first cousins who are survivors. I, myself, have survived a rupture and we’re monitoring another smaller aneurysm and possible issues with the 11 mm aneurysm that originally ruptured. Then, only 7 months ago, I lost my sister Dori to a massive rupture. Yes, they CAN be hereditary, but that isn’t always the case. It’s just horribly ironic that Kim (not a blood relative of mine) was also taken in such a fashion. I’ll never forget getting that news of the cause of death. Survivor’s guilt doesn’t even begin to describe it for me. Again…a day I’d love to forget.

After my ruptured brain aneurysm, no events, or groups to help support me were available in the state of Maine. My only solace and assistance came from online message boards where I have met some amazing people who have survived much worse than me but share many of the same issues I did and still do. I found great comfort in my online community. My friends didn’t rally around me at my bedside or offer to start a walk or group to support others. There was nothing…other than my saint of a husband. Most people don’t realize the burden his shoulders have carried since 2006. I’m a very lucky woman.

It wasn’t until we lost Kim to the same ailment that almost took my life, that a decision was made here in Maine to DO something about making people aware of what a brain aneurysm is, what it can do to you, how it can be treated, and how, as a community, we can help other families in the same kind of need I was in in 2006 and beyond.

Sadly, my sister Dori was very knowledgable about brain aneurysms and she traveled to Maine on several occasions to be with me and Dave during my procedures. How tragic it is then, that we weren’t even able to save her life. BUT, she knew there was a community in Maine that was trying to DO something to help survivors and families deal with such trauma. She dealt with that trauma herself and I KNOW the information and support we provided others was also of comfort to her and my family.

In 2009, Kim’s close friends and family organized the KAT-Walk for brain aneurysm awareness and to honor Kim’s sweet memory. As Kim did, it’s a way to give back and to support those effected by brain aneurysms. She was the first one looking up what a brain aneurysm was on the computer after I had my rupture and she was the first one to meet me in ICU when I arrived by ambulance that morning. I had very few visitors in the hospital or at home after my surgery, but Kim was one of those and she had the opportunity to meet Dori during that time as well.

I think Kim would be proud of the efforts her family and friends have made in the state of Maine to bring awareness and support to brain aneurysms. The number of families we continue to touch, not only in Maine, but throughout New England, is truly amazing and quite sad as well. There are tremendous survivor stories and tragic losses, but each year we’re becoming a loving and supporting community that gains strength from one another and finds a way to comfort those in need. I think that’s what Kim was all about – and God knows I needed the community this past September. I walked alone that day, but knew both Kim and Dori were beside me.

So, remembering the anniversary of Kim’s death isn’t something I enjoy doing. I’d rather forget that day and remember the date of her birth in March instead…because that’s when an angel was sent to touch the lives of all those around her, even if it was just for a short time. And she’s still touching lives in a very positive way.

KAT-Walk & Karo-5K Events 2012

Even before yesterday’s 4th Annual KAT-Walk and 1st Annual Karo-5K started, I knew it was going to be a special event. The number of strangers effected by brain aneurysms that have contacted us this year about the event was astonishing. I think it also meant that our advertising efforts were finally paying off.

People from Maine, Massachusetts,  New Hampshire, Rhode Island, Maryland, and as far away as North Carolina informed us they were coming to the Walk/Run andKim and Heidi let us know WHY they were coming and with whom. Sharing their stories of loss, strength, courage, and survival  – our original tribute to Kimberly Tudor’s memory has now become a tribute to anyone touched by brain aneurysms. I’m beginning to think that’s an even bigger tribute to Kim because of her desire to help people and comfort them. I constantly see her smile on these days and I know she would be proud of all of us and the hard work we’re doing.

As a survivor of a ruptured brain aneurysm, and living with another aneurysm, I love meeting other survivors. Our stories are all different and our paths of survival are also very different. Some are more successful than others and all of those examples were represented yesterday.

Trailer PicDave and I arrived earlier than others at the venue to set up the main display. We wanted something to greet the volunteers as they started showing up to get them excited about the event. The trailer that transports all of the signs, banners, posts, poles, tents, boxes and forms from our house in Augusta, also doubles as a beautiful display of flags. Dave decorates is differently each year. Last year, because the walk landed on the 10th anniversary of 9/11, he decorated the trailer to remember those fallen that day.

This year, because the run was in honor of another family who lost their young daughter last year, the Karo-5k was run and new banners, signs and directional materials had to be created. The trailer included a photo of Karolina and Kim and new signage that Dave and I created.

The committee also decided to solicit for sponsorship this year to help defray the cost of the event and we were highly successful with the venture and could not have done it without them!

Setup for the event, as usual, was extensive and beautifully displayed. There was a brief rain shower that was significant enough to get everything wet, but not enough to dampen anyone’s spirit.

The rain stopped, the sun came back out and the winds picked up. Being on the coast allows for stunning views, the sounds of the water along the shoreline and high winds! We had all of those.

I was joined in the Brain Aneurysm tent by a fellow survivor, Julie. Dave and I had gone over to her aneurysm event in NH last month and she repaid that favor, but also provided a two-pronged attack in our tent to reach out to other survivors or those effected by aneurysms. Julie is a fervent advocate for early detection and fighting for your rights as a patient and demanding your own self care. She is also a breast cancer survivor. Very proud of her.

Two young woman who attended the event yesterday had flown into Maine from Baltimore on Friday night. Sarah had just lost her mom a month ago to a ruptured brain stem aneurysm. At 27 years old, we were impressed she decided to use our event as the way to honor her mother so soon after losing her. It was emotional and comforting for her and I believe everyone who attended welcomed her with open arms and knew how difficult it would be for her.

Both of the mother’s of Karolina and Kim took Sarah under their wings during the day and gravitated towards her, which was understandable, sad, and sweet all at the same time. They lost their young daughters who were both about the same age as Sarah, and Sarah had just lost her mother. Two mothers without daughters and a daughter suddenly without her mother. Touching and heartbreaking.

My own personal heartbreak for this year’s walk was honoring my sister Dori who we lost in May to a ruptured brain aneurysm. She had always wanted to come up for our walk and had met Kim when I had my rupture in October of 2006. How awful, ironic, and heartbreaking is it that Kim  and Dori were both lost to ruptured brain aneurysms and I was the one who basically “introduced” them to aneurysms and got them interested and involved. It’s just not right and basically sucks. I find that word one of the best to describe it.

So, I decided to relinquish my duties at the aneurysm tent since Julie was helping me and complete the 3-mile walk in Dori’s honor. The last time I did the walk, was in 2009…in honor of Kim. I recalled a beautiful rainbow appeared that day and we knew it was Kim. Yesterday, I started the walk and about a mile into the walk I realized a little butterfly was flying in front of me off to the side.

I was walking by myself and kept seeing the butterfly, then it reminded me of the butterflies that were placed in the beautiful flower arrangements at Dori’s memorial service and the emotions took over. After trying to walk and cry at the same time, I realized I needed to get off the path, so I stepped aside and let it all out for a bit. Then I resumed the walk. Perhaps this beautiful monarch butterfly was Dori joining me for the walk finally.

Heidi and Dori on boatAs I went around the Back Cove and up onto the bridge, I looked across the water and saw the many flags and tents flying in the wind from our event. It was a beautiful sight and I felt very proud. Then as I rounded the corner and neared the 2.5 mile marker, I was looking at the chop in the water and remembering the one and only time Dave and I took Dori out onto the harbor on his sailboat when she came to Maine for a visit. Dori was scared too death, but we had fun. LOL It was a good memory.

I didn’t have anyone greeting me, but as I dragged my weary bones and feet across the finish line, I blew a kiss to the heavens above and told Dori that was for her. A few minutes later I saw another survivor, Leray, cross the finish line and made sure I ran (well, walked!) to greet her and congratulate her for completing the walk. I was very proud of both of us and Leray will be going in for a recoiling next week, so I wanted her to know how proud of her I was.

This year was also the first time some members of the local medical community participated. My own doctor, who did my stenting and recoiling in 2011, came with his family and Julie promptly made him wear one of the Brain Aneurysm Foundation baseball hats, which he did. He even ran with a baby stroller in tow. We’re hoping to have more medical events in the future so that local EMTs are educated to the symptoms as well as the general public. As I have mentioned before, if I had not gone to the ER and had myself checked out and the Dr. there hadn’t been suspicious of an aneurysm, I may not be here today. Many people have brain aneurysms misdiagnosed, and many are not here today as a result.

We don’t have the exact numbers yet, but it appears there were over 450 people at the walk and run. The run was very well attended and I know that meant a great deal to Karolina’s family and friends. Karo was an avid athlete and had just completed a triathalon a week or so prior to her rupture last July. I’m sure she would have been proud of all of the hard work her family and friends put into supporting this event.

There was a silent auction and this year I finally won those tickets to the Portland Symphony Orchestra’s Christmas concert in December. We had a magician and face painting for the kids and donated food and water to keep participants nourished. This year we rented a sound system with a wireless microphone and were lucky enough to get a fantastic announcer who was a close co-worker of Kim’s. Larry did a wonderful job. I also put together a playlist on my iPad that kept the crowd upbeat and happy.

Unfortunately, I was so busy I do not have any photos of the event myself. But there are some terrific photos of the run and walk HERE-››: Maine Running Photos. Once I receive more photo of the actual venues and tents, I’ll post more links. These are mostly of the run and walk itself and not of the fantastic setup and the new “Honor Board” that was a hit.

Not only is the Back Cove location a stunning venue to hold an event such as this, there is a real sense of community when family and friends meet to support one another and share stories and memories.

Brain Aneurysms don’t discriminate. Young, old, men, women, black, white….doesn’t matter. The sudden and shocking destruction of a rupture CAN be prevented in most cases if the aneurysm is discovered before it ruptures and that’s the word we’re trying to get out. If you’re “lucky” enough to have symptoms before a rupture (some do not), it’s important to get it checked out and insist on getting a good CT-Scan or an MRA. It could save the life of a loved one, or yourself.

KAT-Walk and Karo-5K Run for Maine Brain Aneurysm Awareness

Lace up your walking and running shoes and join us for the KAT-Walk & Karo-5K for Maine Brain Aneurysm Awareness. This annual event benefits the Brain Aneurysm Foundation in their efforts to support early detection, education, fund research and create awareness about
brain aneurysms.

A brain aneurysm is a weak bulge on the wall of an artery in the brain and can catastrophically rupture. Up to 1 in 50 people in the U.S. will develop a brain aneurysm during their lifetime and each year about 30,000 people will suffer a ruptured brain aneurysm. Almost half of the victims will die and of those surviving, only a third will recover without disabilities.

This year’s event will be held on Saturday, September 15, 2012, around the Back Cove Boulevard in Portland, Maine. The event starts at 11:30 a.m. on the pathway across from the Hannaford Plaza and the walk & run will take place at 1pm. The whole family is invited for a leisurely walk or to enter the timed 5K run. A Silent Auction, 50/50 raffle and many new attractions will make this a special day.

The KAT-Walk originated in memory of Kimberly Ann Tudor, a Portland native, Deering HS and UNE graduate and athlete, who lost her life to a sudden brain aneurysm in December 2008. The Karo-5K is in memory of Karolina A. Kurka, a Scarborough HS and UNH graduate who passed away from an undetected brain aneurysm in July 2011.

September is Maine Brain Aneurysm Awareness Month. Join us as we “share our tears, remember with love, walk & run to honor” those families affected by this silent killer and help save lives!

More information about the event can be found at: MaineBA.org or find us on Facebook at: KAT-Walk.