Category: Frustrated

Worn Out Brain

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Today was one of those days where I just had so many different things going on that my brain feels exhausted. My eyes do too.

It’s amazing how having to concentrate on multiple tasks now can overexert my brain. Working on catalog, getting five different ads out to five different publications, a business lunch, a Dr’s appointment, a monthly calendar designed, then a stop to get a prescription filled THEN the 30 mile drive home! Is it any wonder we just had pizza for dinner tonight? LOL Who wants to cook?!?

When I’m just working on one TYPE of thing, I’m usually not quite that exhausted. It’s the different varieties of projects that can wear me down mentally now. Juggling in my mind isn’t as easy as it used to be pre-annie apparently. I really have to concentrate to make sure I sent things to the right publication, then print out the copies and files everything correctly. Sounds simple doesn’t it? It used to be.

Lazy

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I’ve gotten lazy since my vacation back to NY at the end of May. I haven’t kept up with my yoga and I haven’t been exercising. I’m getting lazy that’s for sure. True, I’ve done some gardening work, but that is pretty much done at this point. Even simple thing get me winded. I need to get MOVING.

Part of the problem is that I had been getting up at 5:30 to exercise and I’m finding getting rest and sleep is far more important to me and will continue to be so in the coming months as catalog season kicks into high gear at work.

The trade-off: lose sleep to get up early to exercise and get healthier, or get more rest so I feel better and don’t exercise and not get healthier. I’m really torn. I love my sleep yet I know I must improve my health. Working out in the middle of the day doesn’t appeal to me because it DOES tire me out. I may try working out at 7:00 in the evening. I read if you work out in the evening, do it three hours before you intend to sleep. That might be my best option….if I’m not too tired.

Why Bother

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Why is it that when I have worries, when I share those concerns with people, all they say is don’t worry about it?

Saying “don’t worry about it” doesn’t validate my feelings, it only makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong, or bad because I have concerns. How is that helpful?

I have every right to be feeling concerned because we’ve lost three key people  now in the catalog process at work. I was concerned simply about my own job and my own well-being during this year’s catalog after my ruptured annie last year and now a lot more is going to be dumped on our department as well as me.

So, just let me feel worried, okay?

How Long?

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As I wrote last weekend, I’ve done it again. I over-did it in a short period of time this morning and am already wiped out and it’s only Saturday afternoon. I’m still amazed at how tiring things that require a lot of thinking can still be.

Meetings wear me out at work I’m still discovering. Or just having to think so much. When my brain has to work that hard, it’s still tiring. I wonder how long this will last? Two more months? Four more months? A year? I guess I’ll know when I know, but it’s a tad frustrating when I can work out on the rowing machine for 15 minutes and not get that tired, but things that make me think, just wipe me out.